The Speaking Coin

In spite of several whole-hearted attempts to go to sleep, I haven’t been too successful. So here I am after all those mundane daily working hours at office.Its been hectic at office and the spirits of people in the team have plummeted to crash down like the stocks on the fifth day, because of controversies with mails and misunderstandings.In this flood was my second mail to my second line manager this time, which got the guts off that guy for sure I guess !! He could not answer to most of my questions which proved there is quite a bit of wrong committed which requires apology.With all these thoughts, my 2 hour journey to office every day in those BMTC buses has become haven to lot of incidents, comedies, misfortunes etc. The "grow up stronger" song, I am listening to as I write this reminds me that I'm nowhere near almost famous yet.
Caring a damn to what ever they are busy with, I had this thought to play punter with my coin (Of course I am the only betting person against none !) I intend to run a small research survey among inhabitants of a Coin Land in order to ascertain their opinion on the recent developments in my world. This research is not likely to prove reliable to most of the world. That said, I don’t really care so I’m going to go ahead and toss up my coin for questions. I present my findings below for the benefit of those who have nothing better to do than to seek reason behind an insane man’s actions.I remember the logic and mental ability from my 7th standard where I matched Heads on the coin to true and the Tails to false to solve some questions, and may this is what is called effective reuse of the Code in this globalized software terminology where anything and everything which has some thing to do with usage of a little bit of brains is called hard work.I mean to remind you that I am a Software guy lolz !! :p
Here it goes

Mr.Me: Will I have a good day at work?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Will I get to go home on time?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Will the girl in the next cubicle smile at me?
Mr.Coin: yes

Mr.Me: Will I ever know what I want before I lose it?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Is my 2nd line manager mad?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Will this headache go away?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Is there a point to this?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Do I already know everything I need to know?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Can I be a rock star?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Do I owe anyone an apology?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Does anyone owe me one?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Am I completely incompetent at everything I do?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Will I ever be able to make my own decisions?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Can I be someone else?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Will India win the World cup?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Do I ever really like any of the people around me?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Then will they stop being so irritating?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Am I crazy?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Are my parents proud of me?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Do my friends really like me?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Does God exist?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Am I God?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Does anything ever matter?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Is everything you’ve told me above true?
Mr.Coin: No

Mr.Me: Is any of it true?
Mr.Coin: Yes

Mr.Me: Should I believe all of it to make life easier?
Mr.Coin: Yes

there we go, the Coin did speak, and I arrived at my office and the the girl had already smiled before I did.I am now with crossed fingers to decide on the probability of the success which the coin just said on my sojourn way, the Coins are as believable as anything else.

Happy Valentine's day

It is the most colorful and loveliest day for all those people waiting to express love and get a positive response from their beloved. So I was out with a perfectly planned and rehearsed sketch to impress my valentine. Woke up early, had put on a beautiful dress that depicts me as a person and also matches my mindset. Then I stepped out as my mobile rang my favorite Titanic song "every night in my dreams" and the number flashed was of "My love". We decided to meet at the perfect place for the day and so went to the Oswal green park which is very serene, that is just half way between our houses. I, with a bunch of fresh cut red roses in my right hand on half knees and she, standing in front of me, blushing as if she knew nothing that is going to happen, and her palm nicely held in my palm just about waiting for a kiss. We were both very avid as the moment I dreamt for all the while is actually about to happen. I knew she would accept my proposal to stride along me all my life and would agree to hold my hands till the very end. And as the moment unfurled, My mind went blank, what ever I thought of telling her to show up as a modern day romeio with all the qualities that she wanted in "her perfect man" were not anymore in my mind. All the words that I could utter were those three magical words, first I thought I was very naive to have proposed like that but then, I thought the actual content is delivered to her heart and was awaiting a reply from her like a batsman waiting for the ball never knowing if he would be bowled or would hit it for a sixer :p (I know I am very crappy here). Suddenly I felt this jolt at my back and I heard my roomies yelling it was 10 AM and I have to wake up to reach office on time :) I woke up knowing that I don't have anything better to do in Bangalore on this most romantic day of the year than to sit in front of the same system at my office and do all the routine project stuff and blog away the pain of not having something better to do than this. Should I call it the pain or illusion of pain ? well I am not sure anymore. Especially when I consider myself to be beyond these pity emotions :D. But now, more than ever, am really glad of the fact that I am a normal human, to whom the laws of nature apply in the same way :D and be a cool guy thinking of all those movie dialogs where the Hero says how happy he is being single and ready to mingle :) Any way, I wanted to say a very happy Valentines day to all the people in Love. Cheers and be happy guys!! for, you are being loved by someone not common.

"THE ANGREZ " - Movie review

In hundred steps, one step is always fumbled, In hundred movies we miss one good movie, this happened with me too,Last week I watched a gem of an old movie which I some how missed watching when it was released, and believe me friends, this movie called "THE ANGREZ" definitely deserves a mention in this prestigious blog of mine :p The rookie cast of the movie should be appreciated for the efforts it has taken in bringing it to people.I am so much amazed at the authenticity of the exact delivery of the words and sentences used in their full form, the exact replica which you hear in the interior parts of Apun kaa Hydraabad.This film tends to bring out its inherent flavor and the spicy tastes, the praise must go to the dialogs writer, he has done everything possible to overlook all commercial compulsions in penning the dialogs of this film.I think the crew really enjoyed the making of the movie than making of money, that is the primary reason why it came out in flying colors.with all these software parks, International Airport, and many more super money intensive ventures being started in Hyderabad today, the old look of Hyderabad is slowly on the loosing track.the Ismail bhai and his gangs are very rare to find these days, and this is a very timely film to save these people from extinction to eternity on digital format.His film will remain a very entertaining documentary down the history lane to the times our beautiful city was a witness to, I am sure this film is very entertaining and funnier than many contemporary films being made today. I am happy that I saw this film finally.Lucky me !! I f you are a mad fan of Hyderabad as I am, and like every thing about it, the dialect and our very own Hyderabadi Zubaan, then do watch this movie, its really worth your bucks.The only song in the movie which is all about Hyderabad sung in English is simply awesome !! I loved it like an ice cream.It seems that the crew of the Movie were going on their knees with a red rose in hand and proposing the fair damsel that is Hyderabad, and swearing their undying love to this maiden to eternity preserved in digital,laser disk format permanently :) I know it does not reach the team of the movie but Kudos to the team once again for their achievement.

I am the Reason !!

To strike the right cord at the right time is difficult, that too when it is against someone who is a cadre above you is definitely being courageous. There was no other option other than to retaliate the topical scenario that was happening at office. It was appraisal time and there was fear added to what I was contemplating to do. It was THIS letter to my manager that I had to send desperately, to change what was happening to me at office. I was working for 12 hours every day, where actually I am supposed to work for 8. I don't really say I was "working" But I was compelled to stay at office to attend the calls with The US team, and to discuss some issues that could have well been done in the day time by mail coordination. More over I was really frustrated by these questions that bore my mind when ever I stayed late at office, Why the hell does the US team not come earlier or leave late for discussions with us in IBM-RDC India? Why should only we in RDC suffer at their expense by working late after 10PM? Are we slaves to work in their time? Do we have more than 24 hours a day? What is that we are being paid if we stayed late? Why should we not maintain a work-life balance? I dared to send the letter to my manager, and I should say that I had answers to what ever I wanted with in 2 days, The scenario has changed, the MR status calls were made in advance by an hour (that means the US team would be joining the call at 8 AM instead of 9 AM), The off shift allowances which we had to be paid for working late would be paid soon (manager confirmed this in another mail to all the team mates). I had this year ending appraisal meeting, I was challenging enough to articulate all my accomplishments this year. All the hard work that I have done all these days to handle my projects would be recognized with some incentive in the near future, my manager said. I was also given a good appraisal at the end of the year, rating that I was given was good enough (I felt I deserved more!! but you know how selfish these human beings are :p). Every thing is well now, and I am leaving on time, my friends are awoke by the time I reach my room in contrast to earlier time, when I would reach my room by 12 midnight and every one would have slept!! I feel much satisfied now. I made it possible, in IBM lingo we say " I am the Reason " !

Cheers to TEAM INDIA :)

My first attempt to be a bit more imaginative ( I call it weird :P ) came out in flying colors after I uploaded my first video in google videos.This video which I have created is an outcome of 6.45 Hours of brain hammering + skipped supper + loads of research to prepare a movie.The intension is obviously to cheer the men in Blue a head of world cup and instill the confidence to romp home successfully after capturing the battle and be crowned as the caribbean kings.

Note: The true fun in watching this video would be only after allowing it to load completely, instead of watching it in bits and pieces as it buffers.

Gooo goooo India !!!!!!

Ever since I have started writing my blog, I wished to write about the one whom I loved the most from my childhood.I was crazy about her from my puerility. Day in and day out always wanted her, craving for the fun and frolic that I had with it.There is no better time to bring it up here and jot down a few things about my first love "CRICKET".

Now that the world cup is just a few days ahead and the team India is fitting in to the groove elegantly with sheer fighting spirits with two back to back series wins in its kitty, it seems we have all the needed armory with acute strengths and in firm shape to pierce any opposition to shatters and decimate any attack to ashes to lift the most coveted cup of cricket.Yeh! we are looking stronger after these wins and these offer that quintessential feel-good ahead of the Caribbean extravaganza.We have sent the message clear, that we are very much in contention for bringing back the Word cup.The men in blue seems to have gained back the much needed inspiration, motivation, perseverance, tenacity, bravery and above all the passion for the game called cricket, after the fantastic comeback of a few players like Sourav and Zaheer in to the team. That flexibility in batting and that extra depth in the bowling department puts us at an option to choose the best 11 every game.It looks like we have a lot of options to choose the players from, as everyone is performing now and thats a very good sign and has positive competition for the place in the playing 11 in the team as well.After tickling my Grey cells for a while, I am up with my playing eleven for the world cup,

1) Utthapa
2) Ganguly
3) Tendulkar
4) Dravid
5) Yuraj
6) Shewag
7) Dhoni
8) Munaf/Pathan
9) Agarkar
10) Bhajji
11) Zaheer

Coming to the justification of various options that I have choosen,
The marauding batsman Uthappa and Sourav have already proved that they can provide us the solid starts that we need to utilize the Power plays,Dada has that natural elegance of adapting to the situation even if a wicket falls at the beginning. Following them would be the much proclaimed and accepted topical worlds greatest batsman Sachin and to fit in next like a brick is our captain and rock solid Rahul Dravid to steady the ship in crisis and hold the innings together. The middle order looks fabulous and in great strength with the trio of powerful batsmen Yuvraj, Dhoni and Sehwag.Then to choose the four bowlers is the toughest job. Zaheer and Bajji would surely be there, then if we want that extra depth in batting, we would have to go with Agarkar and Pathan, but Munaf and Sreesanth would also be in consideration for better bowling attack if we need. With this we would have Tendulkar, Sourav, Sehwag and Yuvi as our fifth bowling options who together should complete 10 overs. The only concern and the aspect of the game that we should continue to improve to the stage up to the world cup is fielding. Barring Yuvi and Uthappa the infield lacks athleticism, and apart from Sreesanth and Agarkar, no one has a strong throwing arm in the deep. The slip cordon is ok with Dravid and Sachin, but all the seniors in the team have tiered legs and their fielding is soggy at times. Our fielding has to be world class if we are to win the World cup.
But you have it in you Team INDIA, go fight like real Tigers. There is entire Nation to support you, bring back the glory and decorate our crown with another World cup victory. Go Go INDIA ... We are here to cheer for you :)

Magic Duo - Thanks & Sorry

Do you really mean it?? yeh, I am talking about the same words that come out a hundred times every day for every petty thing and seldom on some really required situations. Thanks and Sorry. Mechanical repetition of these words has robbed them of their true essence, the heartfelt gratitude that the words seek to express. Real thanksgiving goes deeper than mere words; it arises out of appreciation and gratitude sometimes even for the gift of life out of a sense of wonder and humility, acknowledgment and submission. We can recall plenty of incidents when these words are uttered distantly and impassively. But, very few of us would be able to recount even a single incident in the recent past when a warm and heartfelt gratitude was either given or received. Gratitude is more than just another emotion or expression of humility. It is an attitude, a way of life, even a gateway to a happy, positive and reassured life. Incredible as it might seem, this simple emotion has the potential to release positive forces like love, hope, compassion, humility, joy, reassurance and faith in an individual's life. In the material world, gratitude is like a smile which sooths us instantly of the wrong committed and helps the other feel proud for the help rendered. If sincere, it transmits immense joy to both the giver and receiver even in those domains where there is a very practical exchange of money and services, It has the power to change a foe in to a friend. An attitude to gratitude towards life itself helps us look beyond the material world and view life as the gift as it truly is. It helps us focus on those little blessings of life, which are otherwise either shrugged off or taken for granted. A loving spouse, affectionate children, caring friends, supportive family, and fulfilling career, the blessings are different for different people. But most of the time, we fail to realize the importance of these simple blessings while we still have them, and end up valuing them only when we lose them or when it is too late. What we're left with is a lingering regret of never having cared enough, allowing ourselves to feel dejected and guilty. Gratitude helps us experience the present and cherish the beauty of life. The permanence of life and its gifts is a universal truth. Gratitude is probably one of the most effective cures for that widespread affliction called negative attitude. But there is no market for your sorrows, so never advertise your feelings, be thankful and convey when you really mean it. Do you feel the same way to have had an un-supporting manager as me?? Be grateful that you have an option to leave the job and start afresh [: p]. You have a loved one not talking to you now? Be grateful for all the moments you could spend with her when she was around. Be sorry to her and exchange your talk to reunite. The attitude to gratitude helps us keep faith and hope alive, even when we hit a real low. Most importantly, it dissipates those typical and unavoidable negative perspectives, where Ego overtakes the hearts wishes, which often results in self-destruction of intimacy, to make times tougher. The words 'thank you' and 'Sorry' have the potential to change the course of your life. Listing out all the things you feel grateful for, is a therapeutic exercise that is sure to chase away the most persistent blues. Say 'Thanks or Sorry ' see the magical change these words bring in your perspective towards life. This is one Gandhigiri kinda thing that I had inherited from the movie Lage Rahoo Munnaa Bhai. After all this the next post of mine to follow, I am thinking, would be about the letter to my manager at the end of the previous year, during the appraisal time, which has done great magic in getting things done as per my wish !!! So keep waiting… and thanks for reading.

PS : By the way, I just found to have compiled 50 Posts on my blog, my first one was way back in April 2006, and at that time, I naively planned to post something, every now and then with out much gap, Like 30 posts per month : p. But as it often happens in life, our best-laid plans go away. Still, it's an accomplishment to have shown up 50 times in this space for me. (btw - blogger numbers them, I'm not so abject to have counted them!!) Blogging has helped me to rediscover the love for writing that I had almost forgotten and made me inclined to jot what ever, but I still thrive on mediocrity and conformity, for the fear of being compelled to host another treat, to my friends if flagged up and boast of any kind of un awarded achievement !! [ I am very poor this month, had 4K tax deductions from my salary :( ] all falls wrong at the same time, Stupid salary, I think I am hating it these days, Errrr! Only for this month...

The year It was ....

Quick Handshakes, Hellos and Hiis, strangers, Many new faces, Formal dresses, Project Deadlines, Confusion, Craziness, Scattered rooms, Disheveled cloths, Strange Pathways, Petty conversations, Debates and Discussions, Titters and Smiles, Excitement, Nervousness, First Days, Code reviews, Escalations, Friday fun days, Online quizzes, Awards and rewards, Pubs and discos, Short cricket matches, Interesting chats, Relaxation, Quiet Talks, Online games, Google talk, BMTC busses, Unending Journeys, office carriers, Brand new Library, EGL Quad , Sunset, Golf Parks, Beauty, Late night office, Pizzas, Laptop, Music, IM, Ipod, Corner House, Chicken Biryani, Friends, Chocolate Milkshakes, Memorable Giggles and Laughter, Solitude, A few tears, Early Mornings, Swollen Eyes, Cappuccino, Frantic Thoughts, A hand on the shoulder, Concerned Eyes, Thoughtfulness, Stalking, Old Friends, Wonderful People, Laughter, Saturday nights, Movies, INOX theater, Snacks, Snuggles, Cold Windy Nights, Long Lone Walks, Movies, Blushing girls, Garden talks, Long Distance Phone Calls, Birthdays, Love Songs, Cool cakes, Jealousy, Betrayal, Heartbroken, Care, trust, Consideration, Blogging, Everyday forward mails, Random videos, Endless Hours, Holding Hands, Dancing, Proposals, Winter Evenings, Wandering Thoughts, Reminiscing, Long tours, picnics, mocking, dumbsy, Dares, Adventures, Surprises, Excitement, Parties, Fun, Hurried Goodbyes, Promises, Rethinking, Long phone calls, Brown Eyes, Hope, Rejections, Agreements, PVR cinemas, Shares, Salaries, Appraisals, Gossip, Reimbursements, Mid night strolling, Excuses, TOI news Paper, Critics, Suggestions …. And Many more

Bye Bye Vidya !!

How good a team were we !! Rollicking all the time. Enjoying each moment at our work. Always oozing with youthful exuberance. Cracking jokes, Mocking and shooting those humorous satires on each other all the time.But the permanent absence of one, from this rocking team of ours would cause a dent for sure and we don't know how would we be to each other after Vidya had left.The void can never be filled, The jokes that we shoot on each other, Those fun and frolic filled fightings, Those Little squabbles for gaining upper hand by commenting that one team always had less work than the other.Those little niggles and quibbles with Vidya for all those "working from home" mails !!!!!. But all that was for fun, This last working day mail from Vidya was a real heartener to all our team members,We miss her as much as she would be missing all of us,all those Tom and Jerry brabbles, pettifoggeries and every moment that we enjoyed at work. We promised her of attending her Wedding on feb 10 at Udipi,and we would surely keep our promise.Wish you success always Vidya, have a beautiful life all through your journey ahead, sayanora with saddened souls.

Your are in 2007 !!!!

What reflects new year 2007? You are in 2007 when ...

1) You wake up and go straight to check your mails on internet with out smelling the brewing cup of coffee.
2) When you want to be updated about all the Gossip on Stars than the actual important news to debate with your friends.
3) You go back to your home to get your forgotten mobile with out which your day does not seem to go along,and laugh at yourself when you remember that you have in fact grown 20 years with out it.
4) When you are tilt your heads to just smile :)
5) When you feel that your Maid earns more than you when she takes her monthly wage from you.
7) When you crave for peace of mind and need a vacation to meet your family in person.
8) when you don't have time to find that number 6) was missing in this list
9) When you have 7-8 items that you need to carry to office (Id card, Desk keys, Comb, Hanky, Mobile, Watch, wallet) each day.

10) When you become so bored and tiered at office, that you desperately need some time to relax your mind by reading other stuff like these blogs, personal mails etc.
11) When you have at least 10 phone numbers to reach your family of 4.
12) When your child says "what a beautiful screen saver !!!" when he is taken to an aquarium museum.

Resolutions 2007......

Did you happen see the fireworks? No? Well, we have just bade a glitzy adieu to 2006, to ring in the New Year in a grand, grand fashion.The Spot of new year obviously brings joys, rejuvenates the pressed up souls, creates a new beginning in the fresh lives.Its a source of all new episodes which brings the troglodyte in an individual to a new form with his creative and innovative ideas to make him move with the moving world as a sophisticated individual. With the ushering of the New Year, steps in the resolutions one has to take and follow for this year. I have my share adopted already for this new year 2007 !!
1) In polar to my last year 2006, I have resolved to keep all my resolutions, and to strictly follow them by each word (I know this sounds a bit insane and a bit crazy!!, hmmmm at least few of them If not all.. )
2) Wake up early in the morning everyday between 9 and 10 AM :P
3) Stay away from "This is girl is charmingly Beautiful" syndrome.
4) Carry forward all my last years resolutions (Copy + Paste Kinda thing)
5) Give more time for Myself, My friends, and My family. Keep in touch with everyone, write letters when ever possible.
6) Transform from a Workaholic being to a more holistic social being by giving preference to Life than Work.
7) Stop all those Tom and Jerry Squabbles with Kutty, which worsened our intimacy all this year.
8) Watch only The worth watching movies instead of all of them for just passing time in theaters (Just recalled the movies I have seen this year, was stunned to know that it was more than 75!!)
9) Allocate more time to read all my Favorite Novels again.
10) Take some serious time for preparing for CAT
11) Do not procrastinate anything, complete it when I desire to complete.

Happy Birth Day ra Rama ....

Time: 10th December 00:00 AM, in fact its 5 minutes past Midnight.
Location: IBM, EGA-1B-249, Domlur-Bangalore.
Importance: My Best Buddies Birthday.

This is my axiom; I guess many skeptics would find it hard to take. But believe it or not, faith can move mountains. You are what you believe yourself to be. Your body, language , style everything speaks volumes about you. That is again shaped by the thought you have of yourself and way adopt to drive it. Now, having said about what faith can do, I can’t stop saying about one thing that has become a synonym of faith in my life, Ramakanth. Yes my best friend for this life.The only person that I have been all my life waiting and for whom I would die a throb for. True definition of a friend, whom I trust to the core.

Human life is full of ups and downs. There are many a occasion when one gets so much frustrated that he wants to end his life, but this feeling will not remain for long time. This feeling of disinterest in this material world and relationship is for very short time. At this time one needs proper consultation from someone who is very close to that buddy or some expert or a psychiatric .As human life is very important. It is mentioned in Indian mythology that after passing 84 crores lives, we are born human....Yeh may be that’s why I think I had this friend to support me at each point when I was traveling through some very grueling periods of life. The period when none believed what went wrong on my part to have become bad in a few hearts. I still remember the day when Rama came to give some moral or emotional strength to face the hardship in my B-Tech days with courage. I thank him for what he has been all through my Life. And today is one more colorful day in his life, for, Its his 23rd Birthday. I can only wish him a very happy birthday as I am not with him today to celebrate his birthday as we did the last year midnight, in the bright lights on the Tank Bund Hyderabad. Happy Birthday raa Rama. Live Long.










The words which he wrote in one of my birthday letters are still safe in my diary and echo each time in my ears when ever I feel down and out with problems, "Things happen not as we want them to, but according to a pre-ordained scheme of things, over which we have little control. We were not consulted about the choice of our parents, place of birth, our sex. Neither will we be consulted about our time of death, its place and manner. The cards are dealt to us. We have to play them to the best of our ability. We do not gain anything by fretting or fuming over things over which we have no control whatsoever. We only become unhappy in the process. Accept gracefully the things given to us, the good or bad, and abjectly surrender to the dictates of destiny. Life does not lend itself to strictly scientific analysis. In the rough and tumble of life two plus two may not necessarily equal to four. There are many questions for which we have no answers" . May be I never heard any thing like this even from my Dad and Mom, I dont know If I want to find a Dad and Mom or for that instance any of the ones whom I met in this Life, in my next life, But I would not be born with out Rama as My friend again. Happy Birth day raa and I love you for what you have been to me.

Damn these Sentimental thoughts !!!!!

hmm..sentiments....they just take away ur ability to speak...thats how am feeling right now ...exquisite i cant say anything else,every thing seems to be a third world rhetoric. I say every thing to my blog when ever I feel desperate and find no shoulder to lay on, will post what pathetic and inexplicable bout I am experiencing now, later.. But, still life goes on....
aakhir yehee thoo Zindagi hai !!!

Take Time To ....

One Simple radical of touching sentences... and its poignancy left me immersed in thoughts for hours! I am Spell bound and still wondering who has the power to create such thought provoking qualms.
Courtesy: A mail from Nanditha ....

Take time to laugh
It is the music of the soul.

Take time to think
It is the source of power.

Take time to play
It is the source of perpetual youth.

Take time to read
It is the fountain of wisdom.

Take time to pray
It is the greatest power on earth.

Take time to love and be loved
It is a God-given privilege.

Take time to be friendly
It is the road to happiness

Take time to give
It is too short a day to be selfish

Take time to work
It is the price of success.

this is everything, the truest meaning of an accomplished life....Yes, This is life, and nothing else beyond ...I opine, The day we could do all this, is the day when the meaning of a life is fulfilled.

" The Joy "

Bad, for, its been a long time since I knew what joy is, Just moving along with the ticking time, never found enough time to think of a joyous life, Its been quite some time since I had a quality time out for myself, Desperately trying to understand what I really want to keep myself happy. I normally blog when I have a lot of time or when I feel lost, This time its the later which brought me to this page, Today there is none in my room, every one left for a Resort from Office... I am alone blogging and thinking of experiencing joy...
The Joy of Receiving an unexpected letter from your old friend.
The joy of the cuddle formed by the team when you get a wicket in Cricket.
The joy of a rejuvenating kiss from your love.
The joy of hiding the chocolate from your roomies to eat it all by yourself.
The joy in the solo ride on a roller coaster road at mid night with no traffic lights on.
The joy of being some one else and mimicking them.
The joy of sharing feelings with a friend you love.
The joy in a twilight stroll with your dad.
The joy of chat with your girl friend.
The joy in making others happy.
The joy in solving puzzles.
The joy in getting ribbed by your pals.
yeah .... the true Joy with in. which can only be felt but not explained.

Headlines - MDTV - 12 x 365

Courtesy--THE HINDU - 8th July 2014

1.The stocks cross Highest ever mark of 28000, expected correction
2.People of Telangana State fight for separate Uttara Telangana
3.Vivek,Salman and Abhishek attend Aishwarya's wedding with M.S.Dhoni
4.Aussie cricket team fails to chase a modest total of 532 in Chennai ODI _ courtesy veteran Bowler Munaf patel
5.Much awaited telugu movie "Dungeon- The Kaaraagaaram" to hit theaters today-Starring Cool star Akkineni Akhil, Crazy actress Biliana.
6.Indian PM Sonia Gandhi meets Italian President Priyanka Gandhi for Nuke deal
7.Pak rebels still fight for IOK (Indian Occupied Karachi).
8.Petrol costs to reduce by hundred Rupees all over India.Bangalore strikes the cheapest at 296.34 Rs per every liter.
9.Mission Uranus to start by 2032.
10.Govt contemplating in implementing Must Helmets in Aeroplanes and Choppers.
11. 127th hearing on the Stamp scam case in Supreme court today.
12. Youth fights for Justice in Passica Mal case.
13.Sourav ganguly hopeful, for a place in the veterans ODI to be played for Volcano relief fund in Indonesia.

ITS OK, Take It Eeezi

Ever wondered why and how the world moves each day, despite the terror spreading its appendages, forgetting every thing and every one who has been the cause for the bad meted out to the then reverberating voices of so called public?, The truth is, every one effaces the past, and carries on in quest of what the tomorrow has in store. Frank enough to say they have to !! sab kuch chalthaa attitude is what every one bores at the end of day, "Take it easy" is what every one adopts, to make the life kicking every moment, No one is going to stop you with the moving time and assist you in recalling the faults done and mend them, for, no one is ready to spare time for you, Every one is busy in making their own ends meet. Worry not and move forward, Stop thinking about what you read in columns of your Newspaper today.

The Prime Minister is not doing what he is supposed to do" according to hmmm... almost everyone. ITS OK and good for national unity. After all, who has managed to create this sort of national unity, besides Saurav Ganguly? He is the PM anyway.

"Aish lures the third guy for her marriage after Salman and Vivek", ITS OK, for she is neither your girlfriend nor my sister, even if she is once Miss world.

"A TOI journalist could buy gelatin sticks for Rs.50 in the Tansa lake area, approximately 50 miles from Mumbai, three days After the Mumbai blasts". ITS OK, terrorism is shocking, corruption is not, The traffic person preferred taking 50 bucks for 100 as Chelan the other day for no mistake done by me!!!!

"Naval War room leak". ITS OK, first lets get the results of Bofors, then I will read about the scams and the shady deals and boring stuff about national security. My office Hertz cab driver said, this is just another case which would run for another decade and end with out any words of justice, and rightly true.

"Mulayam has clarified that he has been misquoted on SIMI". ITS OK, he was being Politically Correct and fair, not Politically Calculative.

"Narendra Modi wants some terror laws". ITS OK, he was the one who was denied visa once, I remember.

The weekend TV was lousy. I am now getting confused between the news channel and the movie channel, between programs and advertisements. ITS OK, the media needs money, and only corporates can pay. And that means we will always get want we want, even if its not what we need.

I could not wish three of my friends last month on their B'days because of my crunch time at work, ITS OK, they would all have celebrated it, even with out my wishes, and there is always another Birthday even if I forget the next time also.

My roomie says Danial Craig, as the new Bond in Casino Royale has not performed well up to the expectations and There were no Bond gadgets and gizmos this time, the Bond car was also torn out, without hose mind blowing functions. ITS OK, the type of work I do, as a Software guy as I am, I ask for few more days to think of and to arrive at an opinion, Its fiction anyways, I know.

Why is the boy watching porn on the net, while his dad thinks he is working hard? ITS OK as long as its not our child who is watching, Has it never happened with you? did you not grow up like this, ITS OK, to be noticed watching porn on net unless you are from extra terrestrial space.

I didn’t forward a single mail from my office mail box to my friends today, ITS OK, I work for IBM not for my friends.

Mr. X is discussing some movie with his girlfriend over phone. He had watched it on a pirated cd and is now cribbing on the quality of the print. And he doesn’t think its wrong to watch a pirated cd, even if Interpol thinks Dawood gets a neat bundle from this industry. ITS OK, because, everyone does it. Even I watched a telugu movie on CD yesterday night.

MR. Reddy has stashed a bundle of A4 size bond paper, in his big bag. So this month, he has taken : 1 marker, 3 pens, 4 pencils, one stapler, 2 boxes of stapler pins, 8 files and 3 cds besides the paper from the office supplies. ITS OK, that just means I am dumb to buy pens.

A frustrated Parent is chiseling about a school. Seems they encourage consumerism and his child's school is targeted by multinationals. ITS OK, don’t take it personally. It happens everywhere. The companies are supposed to sell, and the schools have to make money.

I didn’t take bath today because I didn’t get water. ITS OK. Deo is cheaper than Water. And I get water for 3 hours most of the days.

I have wasted my precious minutes of my life, by writing this post, which everyone will say is stupid. ITS OK as long as I don’t waste more time, saying this is an intelligent sensible post.

FYI > My posts are not a fictional series for you to keep thinking about, Oops!! ITS Ok again, No problem, what do I loose If you think anyway, Keep thinking!!! [:D]

Meeraa number aayeegaa!!!!!

Life has not been too rosy for the past one month, One post in the entire month in my blog reflects how crunched I was with work, I had to face some critical moments to finish my projects on bang, every thing got screwed up because of some, not so proper management strategies adopted, being the type of management guy, as I always aspired to be, I made a peep in corner analysis of every thing, and how it all went wrong, one of my projects was in jeopardy!!!! and it was sheer hard work conjunct with smart work, we dug ourselves out from the buried coffin. I had many sleepless nights, my dreams in those few hours when I had a nap were full of those perilous code and those very professional ways of intimidations of escalations in those chains of mails. I feel much more comfortable now, after that hectic work when I had to work for 16 hours a day, I am a happy man now. It is our basic nature to seek happiness. Do we get it? When we look around we find ourselves surrounded by suffering. We feel uneasy; that we are perched on an island of some happiness, surrounded on all sides by deep and dark waters of unhappiness. Is happiness just a mirage? The fact is that there is neither undiluted happiness, nor unabated unhappiness. Life is both. However, the nature of pain is such that it appears that the unhappy phase of life is interminably long. I was traveling through this path all these one month I guess!! Never in my life did I feel the fear of being lost, I was in abjection at a stage when I was blamed for all the mistakes and decisions taken by managers, for I was the sole person handling the project. When we are faced with unhappy situations, we may derive some comfort by observing and learning from Nature. A cold and dark night yields to the refreshing morning sun, with its soothing rays of warmth, radiating light dispelling darkness. Every thing I am telling seems to be out of box I know!!! But this is what is spilling from my heart, and what I have learnt. After every chilly winter, there comes the spring, bringing warmth, hope and cheer. At the end of a dark, long tunnel, there is light. Happiness is a state of mind, which keeps us in a state of well-being. Several important ingredients go to make the 'commodity' known as happiness. But this precious commodity is simply not available in a departmental store. Its a feeling again. I had no minds to remember the Birthdays of my friends also, I forgot to wish a couple of my friends on their birthdays, could not watch any of my favourite cricket matches on TV...I wish I would never again be in such a situation again...Touchwood!!!! Lesson of the period “We do not gain anything by fretting or fuming over things over which we have no control whatsoever. We only become unhappy in the process. Accept gracefully the things given to us, the good or bad, and abjectly surrender to the dictates of destiny, your time arrives and you have fun unlimited” . …Sorry if you read the entire post, I promise to post something more interesting next!!!! :)

Frozen Thoughts .......

Recently my team mate Vidya kept asking me, why do I always shoot up lines about Hyderabad?, and why do I pay visits to the city from a place 600 miles away (Bangalore Ofcourse!!!!!) very often?. She, beeing a Kannadigaa, is obviously fond of her own capital Bangalore, and even was betting me on counting more fun filled places to hang out in Bangalore than in Hyderabad. Well !!! You know who would win, yup, she was no way near, when the list of places drifted from my mouth. This post is for all those Hyderabadis who are mad about the City , and Of course for them who are not, but someday would surely want to fall in love with it !!!!!
It is anyway the haven of all those normal Hyderabadi specials - Pearls, Biryani, Irani Chai, Attars, RamojiFilmCity, Chudi Bazaar, Charminar, Golconda etc which any normal person who is in the city for a couple of years would be aware of. I do not dispute their prominence to any visitor, but there are a certain places where you have to go for a life time experience!!! As a true Hyderabad kaa Miyaa- who has been in there, for most of his past 23 years - these things hold scant importance, if any (except the Biryani at Paradise and Bavargi, and The Chai in Blue Sea. God!!! I would want them even minutes, before I die).
So I compiled my own list of things to do in Hyderabad excluding the routines. I am aiming for max points in the Bulls eye, lets see how many can I come up with.
Eat Street: Sitting beside the Hussain Sagar, with cool breeze caressing you, and a multitude of eating options to choose from; for me this is the best place in Hyderabad. Get down from the MMTS at Necklace Road Station, cross the road and enjoy the food with a view. lolling around in the gardens next to eat street is actually more fun than eat street itself. Rama’s Birthday which we celebrated in that midnight twilight on the TankBund is a life time memory.
Durgam Cheruvu: Also known as the Secret Lake - this lake tucked away in the depths of Madhapur provides tranquility amidst the multi-billion dollar transactions going on a stone’s throw away. An advice: do not visit in evening; the road adjacent to it will be packed with vehicles. Best time to visit Durgam Cheruvu is late night. And do not miss the Tea from the cart that stands opposite Cyber Gateway. Believe me the water slide is worth it, try it and you would not want to come out from the peddling sauce boats....
The "Best Book sellers" in Abids is truly the Best one in the entire city. This has been my favorite from my bachpan, there is no book that you can't find in this store, that too at very low prices. Tilak Road on Sunday or M.R. Book Stores at Punjagutta or Frankfurt Book Store near Odyssey all come under the same sect, The books you would find at these obscure second hand bookshops defy imagination. On Sundays, the entire Tilak Road, near Abids, is swarmed with vendors selling books - no categorization of books, keep searching through them till you get tired or find some gem tucked underneath. Generally an armful of books would cost hardly 100 bucks. M.R. Book Stores & Frankfurt Book Store are bigger second hand book shops, books are categorized properly and are a tad expensive then the Tilak Road books - but here too the sheer number of books is mind-boggling.
Drive around KBR National Park: Do this once and I am sure you would wish for one more drive. The minute you enter the roads surrounding KBR National Park, you can feel a marked drop in temperature. The roads curve around the National Park, with varying degrees of slopes. It is a roller-coaster drive with you being in control all the time. Again the same advice - best time to visit is late night. Do not go on these roads in evening unless you want to be swathed in dust and smoke.
Ice Cream at Mozamjahi Market: Ahead of Nampally, you would find Mozamjahi Market. Look for Karachi Bakery (the taste of Fruit Biscuits of Karachi Bakery cannot be described - you have got to taste it), opposite Karachi Bakery; you can easily find two ice cream shops housed in a building of the 19th century architecture. I do not remember the names of the ice cream shops, but I can still feel the taste tingling my tongue. I have never had better ice cream, at a cheaper price. No ice cream costs more then 15 bucks and at 15 bucks you get three slices of different flavors along with fresh fruits and jelly - Tutty Fruity is simply lip smacking. Another favorite has been the Kulfi - I think it costs 8 rupees.
The Whisper Valley: You have to be in Hyderabad at this place on any Diwali night, you would be surely jumping and thumping. I bet you can't restrain the joy silently with out those wows and wooos!!!!!!
My thoughts are still swirling around a lot of other places ..... But these were the Best, that anyone and everyone who has been to Hyd would die a heart for .....

Blog Hyderabad Blog !!!!!!

I happened to see these Blog Statistics of Indian Cities accidentally, I thought, only Hyderabad metro blogging was struggling to get authors and posts, but the fact that entire city is suffering a dearth of active bloggers disappoints me a bit. I personally love reading books, both English and Telugu,though I am software side guy.Some people ascribe us with the term ‘Nerd’; but, I don’t want to miss out the beauty of the languages, strength and poignancy of human expression. Unfortunately, I could never see a friend or colleague, who at least read, some, much talked about books or so. They just read academic books. Of course there is another sect of people like me, who belong to one place but blog from other, they obviously will be categorized as non localities of Hyderabad I guess,(owning to the gathering of IP address et al …) I don’t know what to say. But still, I can clearly say, youth in Hyderabad are not much expressive about their ideas or ideals. Or they want to pen it down if and only if that is an excellent one? Give me a break, stupidity is also a form of joy :) . Did you happen to watch that ad, "Fair and Handsome", the lame ad, you would have felt crumbling in disgust. How could you have known that if they didn’t show you? :)) Common guys, become bloggers, unite and some day we will become a useful community to serve, may be for a greater cause, or at least to cheer up people who visit, and let them feel proud being Hyderabadees for having such nice bloggers to quote.

A Poem from Heart

Misty water colored memories of the way we were
Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we exchanged, for the way we were
Can it be the way it was, all so simple then?
Or has time rewritten every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again.
Tel me, would we? Could we?
Memories can be beautiful, and yet that's too painful to remember.
We simply choose to forget,
For it’s the laughter we will remember, whenever we remember the way we were......
Hope you never forget this pal, the cards, and the gifts baggage
Memories of a saddened soul after a year and half out from college

In tears..
Yours Me
dedicated for the one who knows, to whom it is meant for

The Joy in a Sad soul

Obviously, writing a blog means you're supposed to post in it regularly. Ideally, I'd like to write something in this journal every day. That was my intention when I started, but then crunch time at work came along, as it does from time to time, and all else seems to fall by the wayside for a week or so. So, Its gonna be rather long post this time after a week, but owing to the negligible readership of my blogs, I feel I should continue with my typewriting skills without bothering much about your patience level. I regret if you have been forcefully directed here, but if you chose to, or came across this accidentally, it’s your luck.
Not long back, I happened to read a TOI article about how a majority of bloggers revolve around the 'I, me, myself' syndrome in their posts rather than writing about general things. Without commenting much on it, I would just say that I am a die-hard democrat, and I usually go with the majority.
A couple of bad news and a happy frolic filled heart (as a result of accomplishment). I wonder how these can amalgamate and co-exist as neighbors at a same place, but do not affect the true mood of a being!!! I guess there are different partitions for different emotions in heart, its been a real tiresome, and a tough week, the last one. The bad news were, one, that Ramakanth, my best friend met with an accident (yeh on a bike, I knew he would some day for sure would take on a vehicle, ask him and he would yell out at me!!! more than 100 times might I, have warned him to ride slow), dint break any bones though except some harsh bruises!!!! and the second one is the loss of one of my most lovable ones...the won who shared four long years of deep relation with me, the won who woke me up for every exam, the one who reminded me of everything to be done, the one who gave me the guidance to go at the right time to the right place, the one who made me read all those naughty and sweeety messages, the one without whom, I could not stay for a single day. I am really very sad after the loss of my 1100 mobile which was given as a gift on my 20th birthday. Hundreds of contacts, a lot of touching messages and pictures from my dear ones, all gone at a blink. Can’t get any one of them back :( . Why can't these airtel guys store these messages and contacts some where when they are able to give the sim with the same old number?? Strange!!! I would have allowed them to trademark some weird name to some memory to put all those contacts and messages!!!! To hell with them, bloody morons. Its still a mystery where, when and how I lost my pyaaree mobile, my memory too isn't working sharp these days. anyways, coming to the good news part, Fuelled with cappuccino and passion and of course with the delight of watching the pretty looks of the newly joined girl sitting in the next cubicle(God!!! she is damn cute),I have successfully completed 95% of my project assignment on the last day of the week, after I kept it pending on 50% for almost 2 weeks. I felt to have justified the task assigned to me, Although in my heart of hearts I love and cherish my leisure time and enjoy, I was trying to be a workaholic for a while all last week to complete my project, and at last I did it on Friday by 2 AM.I am filled with the pride of accomplishment now.. Yeh joy and Sorrow can dwell well in the same heart !!!!!!!

Wandering for Solace in Solitude

Dissatisfaction is one trait ingrained in humans. Its strange how a man craves for solitude (calling it "some space") when surrounded by people, but seeks company when left alone. Happiness seems to be an alien species on a non-understandable planet called life. Various identification-attempts of the species serve as alibis for various sections of people who tend to explain it differently. Happiness in solitude is often related with an abstract attainment - given the name eternity or divinity by certain sects. Happiness in normal life is mostly identified with the surroundings. A man is "happy" if things and people around him are. The previous sect would reject this perspective as "temporary" or "worldly". Whichever school of thought you subscribe to, remaining happy is a mammoth task. Whichever excuse you provide yourself as a reason for being happy, on a wider perspective of heart and truth, everything boils down as artificial. A peaceful mind and a contented heart constitute that elusive combination which every man craves for. Only the rarest of mankind actually achieve it. So as to say, I am not from that species!!!! I am not happy here !!!!!! and not at all contended with what life is giving me, wonder how my dad has been tierlessly doing the same job for 25 long years Huh !!!! dad u really are great..... I am fed up of this job already ......

Missing U A lot "Hydraabaad"

In extention to my the earlier post "heights of insanity" ,I found a clear difference in plenty of things between Bangalore and my place Hyderabad. Never in my 20 years of stay in Hyd, did I feel a single thing bad about my favourite place on this planet,Hyderabad. I always feel Hyderabad rocks!!!!! . On the other day there was a show hosted by Barkha dutt on NDTV, a documentary, which spoke volumes about apun kaa Hydraabaad and its rich heritage.My blood was dripping with a pressure of 180/100 when I was watching that. Why am I attached so much to the city ?? hmmm... the answer is bit difficult, but I am sure comparing any aspect of it with other places will make it very simple. Bangalore on other hand, is much more western in its culture and is a host to lot of people from not around the country but around the world.....Every thing is special about hamaaraa Hydraabaad.The galli cricket, the girls in langaa voonis, the watch at will movies in theaters with out the stuggle of booking in advance for a weekend,the much organised city busses and traffic, countless hangouts for the youth and the aged baapoos,our own urdu zubaan,the very helpfull people and the auto walas,Hydrabaadi biryani at the Bavargi, Blue sea mein Afzal bhai ka Irani chaay, Road side gupchup kaa kwaavdi,hordes of friends on the tankbund and necklace road,vrooming bikes in banjara hills.....Every thing is sooo khaas about Hyderabad.I really miss every thing now.....Desperate to stay with my city :(

Munna Bhai aa ree laa reee !!!!!

No work on Saturday and Sunday has made me glu sticked to my comp and publish all these "just wanted to" posts, and here I am with my review on Lage Rahoo….."I'm back" says our Munna bhai in his own desi ishtyle & guess what ?? Circuit too is here again to take us on a "journey of a lifetime" (fitting, despite of being such a cliché). Last week, I watched Lagey Raho Munnabhai (LRM) & I admit I was late by 4 days in watching it :P , reason?? no tickets on weekends soooo typical of Bangalore (in Munnabhai lingo ,"Booleethoo… apun koo time ich nahee milaa, aur uper se ticket ka much much).Lucky as I always am (no pun intended),JV got tickets for the 10 PM show, at innovative, was tough to return in chilling cold on bike, but, anything for Munna Bhai!!!!!

Let me tell you honestly & loudly, I really loved LRM. I don’t normally give a review to a movie, if you go through; RDB is the only other movie which has got a review on my blog!!! We laughed at Circuit and Munna's evergreen repartee, paid attention to meaningful (beautiful too) words of the old Mahatma, felt morose with the old men's troubles of the old age, felt cheered up with them when Munna came to their rescue and before we knew ..the show was over, It was magic, magic of simplicity, honesty and of a benevolent desire to tell us something we don't want to know. LRM is a good movie, but what makes it a great movie is its attempt to reincarnate Gandhian values. Gandhi is 'KOOL' again. Munna is again the Mr.Fix-it-all, but this time there is no ghoda and gun, no con man ship and no lies, just the good ol' values of love and truth. The scene just before the interval, where Munna apologizes circuit, for beating him takes the icing over all, I and all of my friends in the theater would have definitely opened the gates of their eyes to rush the flood out, if there would not be that little prank on Chinese food by Munna, at the end of the dialogue, Ckt rulz again, My full marks to him in the movie!!!! All the solutions to our problems are very simple and straight in the face, it is our refusal to see them that makes them so complex. In the words of Rishikesh Mukherjee,"It is so simple to be difficult, but it is so difficult to be simple". Baapu just reiterates this simple truth to us in LRM. LRM doesn't preach, it just reopens the age old debate of Violence v/s non-violence. It does not pass any verdict, rather it tells a sweet story of a gold-hearted goon dabbling with Gandhian values. But you learn something along the way, at least feel that Gandhi wasn't as outdated as we like to think. So simple are these values, you commit a mistake, say sorry and MEAN IT. Speak the truth, it is the real shortcut to whatever you want. Be Honest. Isn't that something we already know? But it is the hardships of growing up that made us oblivious to the goodness (or badness) of these values. Take it easy and “saaab chalta hai” is our attitude. I guess we learnt very fast and unlearn these simple things even faster. Gandhi is not outdated. It's us who have chosen the seemingly easier and wrong path. It is our inability to withstand against the corruption that is very in'dated' but it is leading us all to a precarious situation. Even I am feeling a little guilty while writing these lines. Am I any more true to Gandhian values than you?? Well...my mortified conscience won't be able to answer this embarrassing question. Still the answer is out there ...blowing in the wind. But I suspect if anybody else is in better situation than me .We are all the same and that's such a pity.

Does LRM serves any higher purpose than making money for its producer and tickling some of our funny bones?? Maybe yes, maybe no. but if it stimulates you enough to even read or to know more about Gandhi and his ideology....Then I bet it does. Go and njoy your bit now!!!

PS:
On a lighter note, Vidya Balan looks like a million bucks as always. I couldn't help feeling a little lost when she was onscreen. Ah! The same old inexplicable mystique of female beauty :)

Vandee Maataram

Once upon a time, we used to sing a song ,
In the morning assembly, with the sound of a gong.

we hardly knew what it meant,and never did we care,
Everybody sang it ,nobody was spared.

'Hail the motherland' it said, all that we knew.
Nobody objected ,neither me nor you.

Some of us sang it,some simply stood,
We weren't bothered if it was for bad or for good.

when the assembly broke ,we ran for the game,
And again as usual we became all the same.

Nobody was applauded for the way we sang,
And everybody of us was just one simple gang.

I see it now ,we were such a fool,
That song wasn't a song but it was a tool.

It will tell us who love the country and how much is his love
And care not for a moment ,if it kills the white dove.

Yeh, I am speaking of my National Anthem "Jana Gana Mana". I simply think that it does not deserve to be a nation's representation, after I read the story behind it.I came across a post which briefed why and when was the now praised and sang Indian national Anthem was written, by Rabindranath Tagore.It was written hailing an English delegate on his visit to India, at the time of Independence, mentioning that "all the great riches of my country, welcome you". I doesn't want to spare the one who suggested it for a National Anthem, Get Him and I will show him what I am !!! grrrrrrreee :(

Heights of Insanity

Damn the sops!!!!!
I can't stay away from BlogoSphere !!!!! I am back again after restraining myself for quite some time....

Well!!!! I have been experiencing this alarming transformation of the life style and looks of the young and charmingly beautiful girls in to strange and ugly beings every where. Where has all the beauty of those sarees and chudidhars gone?? I rarely find pretty women draped in a saree in Bangalore, the thrill of watching a young girl in a punjabi dress or a langa vooni (half-saree) is no more in this part of my own country , The culture is turning more western from Indian, Its no pleasure to watch hanky panky girls doing all kinds of weird things that they can in public, its irritating rather. While standing at the Food Court lobby last week, On a Friday afternoon, I suddenly realized how peculiar many women look these days. It's as if a low-level wannabe footballer's wife vibe that is neither aesthetically pleasing (being cheerlessly vulgar) nor edifying (being staggeringly crass).I've been struck by it before, usually with the implants and the weird stuff at some parties, at Discotheques or at some fancy dress competitions. But at the Food Court, Forum Mall and the airport I saw the same phenomenon en masse. What happened? Why are women, who ought to be too young to care, dressed like suburban glamour models on a night out at some Pub or like an item girl in some movies? And why are women not old enough to know better dressed. It’s not just the clothes, though the clothes are with alarming enough glaring red and glitter, added to these are the tiny vests, expanses of (plastic) bosom and stomach, vertiginous heels, incredibly short skirts or shorts, massive handbags, and huge designer sunglasses. Oops!!! I forgot those funky accessories which they carry, the orange tans, acrylic nails, hair extensions, I found this in more than many places here in Bangalore, at The Forum, Brigade Road, for that matter even at the Food court in office on a Friday evening. When I see a picture of Victoria Beckham or Paris Hilton , I feel scorn, pity and irritated. But clearly I'm in a minority, these women with their bling, their weight issues and their vacuous lifestyles are regarded as being the acme of chic by vast numbers. But If I heard of anyone doing that, I'd tell them to get a grip. I wonder where the madness is going to end. Where are the normal adult females under 30? Well on the way to extinction is the answer. The ones over 30 aren't doing brilliantly either. I can see how it happened. The topical generation influenced everything. I wish to find another job and rush back to my home place Hyderabad, where I feel the scenario is not as worst, God!!!! Save my ethics and customs, let people be what they truly are!!!!

Project "personal"

Just Yesterday, I looked back at this one year at IBM, and realized that there was plenty & plenty of fun in my life all this year, that gave happiness to my soul, but then, there was another side of my pouted heart, which was loosing the charm of actual shishir, who was good at his academics too. I felt I was not performing well, par what I can do, except completing my projects on date and delivering them, I learnt not much, technically except some UNIX and just more than some JAVA, the thought of completing my certification in JAVA has been following the same thought since I thought, what ever the reason, I am, I thought didn’t give much importance to that and to improve my skill set technically, there was no pragmatic, realistic and tangible strategy I adopted for time management to allocate a few hours for learning. Most of my friends who were with me all this year were shuffling to other companies, this was another reason may be which brought the thought of "start reading and improve my technical skills". To end all the resentment and to see myself holding the SCJP certificate in another one month, (that is too much time I know!! but I have to beseech god to make me some time from these tight schedules now.) I wanted to change my regular schedules and concentrate on what I now want to. I have to garner some confidence now to excel, and I am sure It is more often than not that I have taken oath, the others follow after I am through......
For all this, resolutions have to be made, for this Aug-Sep-Oct at least, a few of them which I desperately wish to follow
1) Wake up early and do my regular morning workout exercises to shed the few pounds which I put-up for the past one year and gather my fit and fine older shape of mine
2) Reach office not after 10AM and Leave not before 10PM, for what ever reasons.... Read those PDFs while free and bored or dejected with the project work
3) Complete the rest chapters for SCJP certification, may be plan to write java 1.5 exam than 1.4 instead
4) Stop Blogging until I finish my certification by next month. Sorry friends I can't do this, but I have to, no choice.
5) Stop chatting on yahoo and gtalk through out the day with friends and family, I am uninstalling them now :(
6) Check my personal mail boxes once in the morning and once in the night while leaving.
7) Same with my Orkut, No orkutting all day, reply to the scraps in the evenings and write some in the morning.
8) Start writing my diary, which I stopped a couple of months back again.
9) Start eating a morsel atleast three times a day.
10) Stop spending too much generously, and save 10K from now.
11) Read the TOI and Hindhu headlines for not more than an hour and half at office.
12) Start some serious prepration again for my CAT .
13) Work seriously at office to complete my projects and read when ever I find time.
14) Stop watching too much TV at room, but enjoy the weekends to max,thats the only way I can be revitalized I know that!!! .....So catch u in a month friends......cheers and Bye until then

Happy Independence Day INDIA

Was away On vacation for 4 days at my home town,njoyed abit.I desperately wanted to blog on My Independence day, 15th of August to wish all the readers and my fellow INDIANS, but damn those Net centers in my hometown,I could not find one properly functioning and open netcafe,despite roaming for 2 hours.I was invited to my School Independence day celebrations by my principal ,It was raining cats and dogs all day, yet I managed to salute the flag at my school,which I never missed in my entire life,not once I swear!!.I really felt proud to speek at the podium, The moment I became the orator and adressed the students where I was sitting once was just the time of life. It was a great feeling beyond words.Fueled with pariotic fervour and passion I gave a blood dripping speech, every sentence that I spoke was backed by my principal,for all those applauds I was eternally elated.I met many of my teachers who still remembered me and called me with my name,that was when I felt to be honoured to have been associated with my school,I went to my class rooms where I once sat,kiran(one of my old calssmates at school) accompanied me all through the day.Back to I-day, I was watching the redfort flag hoisting ceremony on TV it was amidst Z-rate security,I wondered if that was Independence but I missed not a single word of the PM's speech, most of the stats were alien stuff, though I managed to dump something in.I wished I would be there talking to my country (shut up!!! and don't laugh, I din't mean as a PM) and utter with nerves of steel and impeccable commitment, a roaring "JAIHIND" to my nation and pay respects to all the fighters and soldiers dead and alive gaurding my country.I still do this,if not at the redfort.HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAYS all along INDIANS.....cheer for the nation,make the flag fly high,be proud to be INDIAN. Hamaaraa Bhaarat Mahaan.

KANK a crap !!!!!

Finally and Finally !!!!!!! I watched the much awaited and publicised movie Kabhi Alvida Na kehna on he second day at IMAX, before my visit I wondered why Chevrolet KUN showroom offered tickets to please all its customers for this saturday night show,there was another perspective to look at, probably they thought the showtime tickets would not be sold. Beleive me, I am a no Karan Johar fan now!!!! There is nothing worth quoting in the movie.It just stinks.I am dumbstruck why did KJ call this his best movie ever?? The movie,taking an expedient of time leap,relegates broken marriages and families as non-issues and in its own sick way justifies the extra-marital affairs.I should say that I was sort-of royally screwed by watching KANK.The guilty expressions and the intensity later half are very aesthetically done in some parts of the movie. Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy's awesome music, coupled with Farah Khan's choreography, the acting talents of Kirron Kher and Amitabh Bachchan's frivolous ways in the hugely emotional scenes, are the only things to look for in the movie.The performance of all other lead actors is eminently forgettable.sharukh with his routine acting style,and Abhishek with his not that important character are waste to watch,Preithy does not have much to do except look pretty and Rani doesnot know what she does in the movie.Quite a waste of talent. The plot is weak and is only matched by the bad acting of all the protogonists of the movie. If you decide to leave before the scrolling credits at the end of the movie, rest assured you won’t be the only one.Spare yourself of such an ordeal!

“Sachin” ---- The God ?? < “ The Sachin” --- A God >

My hearts God and one of the nation’s prized jewels is going to be back in the next ODI in the champions trophy,I am eagerly waiting for sachin's return to what he is best at. I bet he would say the answers to all the critics with his bat.Obviously,The return of the batting genius Sachin Tendulkar to international cricket brings in a new zeal of excitement. Sachin has had more than his share of injuries, and in the last few years has suffered so many injuries that he would easily earn the sympathy of express fast bowlers prone to frequent breakdowns. And there has been criticism for the Maestro whenever he has made a comeback to the international level, with the so-called experts saying that Sachin is not the same as he had been down the years setting one record after another since he burst on to the international scene as a 16-year-old, to be regarded among cricket's all-time greats.Sachin always seems to reject his bewitching fusion of majesty and human frailty in favor of a mechanical, robotic accumulation.Such are the level of expectations from Sachin that even a mediocre series raises some eyebrows. Of late, as Wisden noted, Sachin has not been in his old aggressive self. Expert opinion is divided on whether this is due to his increasing years of stress or the lingering after-effects of injuries over 17 years at the highest level. Every one expects him to score at least a half century every match,but none seem to remember that he is just a player turned bright star who always bores the torch of hope and romps INDIA home.He carved a niche of his own in many a million hearts not only in India but world wide.People went on to the extent of praising him as greatest player of all time given the current cricketing scenario.I remember Ganguly lauding him by saying "why worry ?,even 70% fit sachin is better than many great players of topical cricket" in one of the interviews on BBC. And now when Sachin will take part in the Tri-Series in Sri Lanka, he will carry the hopes of millions of Indians, as he did on his arrival as a teenage prodigy, and just the sight of their talismanic player going out to bat will be assurance enough. Go on sachin ....Stay gold.

Sorry dear Sister :(

Its been five years since I stayed with my sister for a "Rakshabandhan" day, I am no man, to say sorry this time to my dear dearer dearest Ammi,for I know she doesn't excuse me for all my apologies this time too.I dedicate this post to you Ammi as a consle to my heart.I din't receive your rakhi yesterday, for me to tie it to my hand today :( I hope it arrives in the afternoon today, I tied another one from baby akka (my cousin) which has come yesterday !!!.Ammi, I promise to keep up the filial covenant of love that we shared since birth and to live a life of purity in thoughts, words and actions.I know that the history is replete with examples where brothers died in defence of their sister's honour.I voe for the same.for, you have been the most adorable one for me.I promise to bring you the gift this weekend when I come to Hyderabad. I really miss this auspicious ceremonial occation which we used to have at home.I do not know how to put he wishes here but lest take my words of "Happy RakshaBandhan Day " meet you soon ......

Happy Friendship Day :)

"Friendship day", and it was time again for all my mates to join hands for yet another sojourn tour,I freaked out to Nandihills 64 KM from Bangalore with 12 of my friends this time,as always we really enjoyed the tall trees, breezy winds, steep hills, trekking on the mountains, historic temples, fantastic nature and its scenic beauty.Then, after returning from the wholly enjoyed trip, as I dug deeper through all my old greetings and birthday cards, I found a simple piece of paper with “To u - From me” scrawled on it.It was the letter written by Rama to me on my second birthday at college ( in my 4th sem I guess). He was my first friend trusted till root after I moved there to Anantapur for my Btech. It was more than a mere letter to me then. It was the promise of a new beginning.It needs a special mention about my best friend Ramakanth when ever I speak of Friendship,thats why this special stanza is written for him.

Then there is much to write about all my dear friends Snippy,Santu,Pappi,khanna,and kutty.Tough times now that just never seem to get better. well, I miss all of you guys and how you have all made me laugh like there was no tomorrow.Thanks Guys for being with me through out.You are the best thing that ever happened to me and who have made a big difference in my life though some of you might be hardly aware of it :).we may not speak for a day, for a month, for a year or maybe never get the chance to look at eachother again in this lifetime.....but the times we have shared will always remain with me...the memories of friendship will forever be etched in this heart which has come across as rock to some and gold to others.Pouts & smiles.who were with me through zits, storms, gaps, the best and the worst, and yet remained tight and true all these years.I knew each one of you would call me to wish for this friendship day as you did. It might not be exactly what the tarot cards ordered but you have to agree, there are few things in life cooler than making new friends and keeping old ones.I wished all my dear friends would be with me partying this night but not to be, missed you all very much for this F-day!! To all my favorite friends, cheers!! and hugs a heap!!!!Happy Friendship day again.

Entangled thoughts

I normally blog when I find time sometimes and when I dont find time for myselfs sometimes,but this time for no reason,I desperately want to write it to share my aching hearts pain with some of you atleast,I always considered myself to be one of those "organised" guys around. Clear about life, goals and all those seemingly abstract terms one can encounter in self-help books. But then, life isn't so easy always.I am in a confusion as to how to put straight my sinking relationship which I once cherished the most.I dont know how to speak with such free affluence with kutty as I used to earlier,I dint knew refraining speech for two months leads to such acute misconstrual.She tried meeting me when I went to Hyd,called me on my bday,scraped and wrote me couple of times,but why did I not respond in a way, to continue to be as I was earlier? I still hung with my idiotic don't care idiosyncrasy.I should have responded in a more friendly and caring manner.now I fear if can get back those days where we cared a lot for each other,I wish Kutty reads this post !!!But I still believe,everything is exactly as it is for a reason. The crumb is on our table not only as a reminder of this morning's cookie, it is there because we have chosen not to remove it. No exceptions. Everything has a reason, and the tiniest detail is a clue.I guess there are only two ways to end this dichotomy. A few hours of perfect solitude - I am craving for which for a long time; or some quality time with a wonderful friend and thats why I have booked my ticket to Hyderabad for the comming weekend to meet my best friend Ramakanth,and find some time for myself.... lets see where it leads after this friendship day.

LOVE - A Hickup

An elusive topic that can never be made understood to anyone completely ...diff things, diff angles, diff views, diff experiences,Always an enigma to wokout,leaving a bedazzled expression on my face when ever I tried understanding what exactly is this...
I am still unable to make up what would be the outcome of the message this post is going to spill, will this in some familiar way open eyes of our youth and bring them to realization of the abused word: “love” ?? or is it in a strange way going to drive some more buffs to fall( rather rise) in Love !!!!!
here goes a discussion......

I : What an amazing view of this very topic.The romantic love is one of the most misunderstood, complicated and misguided topic in today’s world among our youth.The confused youth go around,observing their role models,their looks and their mannerisms,expensive clothes, hot romance and dangerous yet misunderstood love in itself and try mimicing every thing for their satisfaction, what they see on television, and Movies. In all these areas, love exists in such inspiring ways and instills junk stuff feelings in their minds making them desparate.They follow what they watch and what is most enjoyable, citing examples as the ones they admire and try to copy what they see.They believe they completely know what they are doing, although they may not.

Me : Crap!!! Stop stop why do feel following their models as following love,may be it can be be moving with topical trends,and if that is the case,you stupid "I" You should face the accusation of aiding and abetting your friends at college who fell in love rather then preaching them your dos and don'ts, you can't say Love is absurd or lovers are insane with all your imagineering.

I : Youth try to fall in love and believe they are in love, but most of the time it is just lust, attraction and utter confusion. With the assistance of their thoghts, their visions are fogged and what they believe to be true love,is actually just a crush or luxuria that eventually disappears leading to some type of supposed heartbreak. Atlast, they try to be in strong and long relationships. They try to figure out another person of the opposite sex before they even consider figuring themselves out.I can argue on this for hours,there is no true Love....

Myself : Hey Romeo and Juliet fell in love at an age of 14 when they were still in teens,this was no lust,and you can't say they were never lovers,can u?love is an experience which comes out of understanding the person you decide to walk along through out your life, You don't love any one you see, Love spurges out only when one feels its perfectly alright and secured to be in others company and can share good and bad of thy.

I : I am pretty sure that no matter how strong you are, you are likely to experience this uncontrollable cycle when you invite the process of LOVE to your life. If you feel you can intercept someone you should be very honest with yourself. In this case, the relationship should be called a friendship a sincere intention to have only a social interaction with a person.Not hanky panky, so that you can have a clear understanding from the very beginning without any room for guesswork or temptation.DO you now say Romeo and uliet din't crave for this at that tender age??Now,May I ask what explanation do you give to your little brother, sister, or youth who are striving along the path of submission with you? Where does this leave you? What If you are giving in to your urges and satisfying your physical desires. You are a single young and attractive submitter with your emotions and hormones revving in high gear. All you see around you are images of love, romance, passion and sex. Your friends seem to go through dates like it's a fruit and you wonder if they are beginning to question your sexual orientation. Of course, we know that God is Most Merciful and is the acceptor of repentance. But why should you bring yourself to the point of having to repent when you have the power to remain steadfast from the very beginning?

Me & Myself : !#@$*&# Catch you later Buddy, Have some work !!!!