God without me or Me without God?

I have been a person who firmly believed in the elusive theams of spiritual existence,God was always in my mind atleast in my hardships to thinkabout,infact I never missed reading a single stanza of the daily spiritual preachings in TOI, striving for peace of mind,never did I skip those sojourns to temples on thursdays, to say everything good and bad to Baba and in search of solitute,all my B-tech days.But now, procastination took over anything and everything compelling me to lead the life of one among this hapless class of aimless individuals.Sentencing "TIME" is a lame excuse ofcourse, I knew that,it seemed that I was literally lost in time when I said no to my moms question of my regular thursday morning visits to Sai temple,this beeing special thursday. Am I transforming my inner me in to a nihilist? am I tiered searching for something beyond life? God knows !!!! should be the immediate answer,may be that is why he forgot me when I did the same to him for all these days,I dint realise that until just yesterday...I was in my own world bothered about none,talking to myself all the time leading a lazy life of all those lackadaisical lot.