Project "personal"

Just Yesterday, I looked back at this one year at IBM, and realized that there was plenty & plenty of fun in my life all this year, that gave happiness to my soul, but then, there was another side of my pouted heart, which was loosing the charm of actual shishir, who was good at his academics too. I felt I was not performing well, par what I can do, except completing my projects on date and delivering them, I learnt not much, technically except some UNIX and just more than some JAVA, the thought of completing my certification in JAVA has been following the same thought since I thought, what ever the reason, I am, I thought didn’t give much importance to that and to improve my skill set technically, there was no pragmatic, realistic and tangible strategy I adopted for time management to allocate a few hours for learning. Most of my friends who were with me all this year were shuffling to other companies, this was another reason may be which brought the thought of "start reading and improve my technical skills". To end all the resentment and to see myself holding the SCJP certificate in another one month, (that is too much time I know!! but I have to beseech god to make me some time from these tight schedules now.) I wanted to change my regular schedules and concentrate on what I now want to. I have to garner some confidence now to excel, and I am sure It is more often than not that I have taken oath, the others follow after I am through......
For all this, resolutions have to be made, for this Aug-Sep-Oct at least, a few of them which I desperately wish to follow
1) Wake up early and do my regular morning workout exercises to shed the few pounds which I put-up for the past one year and gather my fit and fine older shape of mine
2) Reach office not after 10AM and Leave not before 10PM, for what ever reasons.... Read those PDFs while free and bored or dejected with the project work
3) Complete the rest chapters for SCJP certification, may be plan to write java 1.5 exam than 1.4 instead
4) Stop Blogging until I finish my certification by next month. Sorry friends I can't do this, but I have to, no choice.
5) Stop chatting on yahoo and gtalk through out the day with friends and family, I am uninstalling them now :(
6) Check my personal mail boxes once in the morning and once in the night while leaving.
7) Same with my Orkut, No orkutting all day, reply to the scraps in the evenings and write some in the morning.
8) Start writing my diary, which I stopped a couple of months back again.
9) Start eating a morsel atleast three times a day.
10) Stop spending too much generously, and save 10K from now.
11) Read the TOI and Hindhu headlines for not more than an hour and half at office.
12) Start some serious prepration again for my CAT .
13) Work seriously at office to complete my projects and read when ever I find time.
14) Stop watching too much TV at room, but enjoy the weekends to max,thats the only way I can be revitalized I know that!!! .....So catch u in a month friends......cheers and Bye until then

Happy Independence Day INDIA

Was away On vacation for 4 days at my home town,njoyed abit.I desperately wanted to blog on My Independence day, 15th of August to wish all the readers and my fellow INDIANS, but damn those Net centers in my hometown,I could not find one properly functioning and open netcafe,despite roaming for 2 hours.I was invited to my School Independence day celebrations by my principal ,It was raining cats and dogs all day, yet I managed to salute the flag at my school,which I never missed in my entire life,not once I swear!!.I really felt proud to speek at the podium, The moment I became the orator and adressed the students where I was sitting once was just the time of life. It was a great feeling beyond words.Fueled with pariotic fervour and passion I gave a blood dripping speech, every sentence that I spoke was backed by my principal,for all those applauds I was eternally elated.I met many of my teachers who still remembered me and called me with my name,that was when I felt to be honoured to have been associated with my school,I went to my class rooms where I once sat,kiran(one of my old calssmates at school) accompanied me all through the day.Back to I-day, I was watching the redfort flag hoisting ceremony on TV it was amidst Z-rate security,I wondered if that was Independence but I missed not a single word of the PM's speech, most of the stats were alien stuff, though I managed to dump something in.I wished I would be there talking to my country (shut up!!! and don't laugh, I din't mean as a PM) and utter with nerves of steel and impeccable commitment, a roaring "JAIHIND" to my nation and pay respects to all the fighters and soldiers dead and alive gaurding my country.I still do this,if not at the redfort.HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAYS all along INDIANS.....cheer for the nation,make the flag fly high,be proud to be INDIAN. Hamaaraa Bhaarat Mahaan.

KANK a crap !!!!!

Finally and Finally !!!!!!! I watched the much awaited and publicised movie Kabhi Alvida Na kehna on he second day at IMAX, before my visit I wondered why Chevrolet KUN showroom offered tickets to please all its customers for this saturday night show,there was another perspective to look at, probably they thought the showtime tickets would not be sold. Beleive me, I am a no Karan Johar fan now!!!! There is nothing worth quoting in the movie.It just stinks.I am dumbstruck why did KJ call this his best movie ever?? The movie,taking an expedient of time leap,relegates broken marriages and families as non-issues and in its own sick way justifies the extra-marital affairs.I should say that I was sort-of royally screwed by watching KANK.The guilty expressions and the intensity later half are very aesthetically done in some parts of the movie. Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy's awesome music, coupled with Farah Khan's choreography, the acting talents of Kirron Kher and Amitabh Bachchan's frivolous ways in the hugely emotional scenes, are the only things to look for in the movie.The performance of all other lead actors is eminently forgettable.sharukh with his routine acting style,and Abhishek with his not that important character are waste to watch,Preithy does not have much to do except look pretty and Rani doesnot know what she does in the movie.Quite a waste of talent. The plot is weak and is only matched by the bad acting of all the protogonists of the movie. If you decide to leave before the scrolling credits at the end of the movie, rest assured you won’t be the only one.Spare yourself of such an ordeal!

“Sachin” ---- The God ?? < “ The Sachin” --- A God >

My hearts God and one of the nation’s prized jewels is going to be back in the next ODI in the champions trophy,I am eagerly waiting for sachin's return to what he is best at. I bet he would say the answers to all the critics with his bat.Obviously,The return of the batting genius Sachin Tendulkar to international cricket brings in a new zeal of excitement. Sachin has had more than his share of injuries, and in the last few years has suffered so many injuries that he would easily earn the sympathy of express fast bowlers prone to frequent breakdowns. And there has been criticism for the Maestro whenever he has made a comeback to the international level, with the so-called experts saying that Sachin is not the same as he had been down the years setting one record after another since he burst on to the international scene as a 16-year-old, to be regarded among cricket's all-time greats.Sachin always seems to reject his bewitching fusion of majesty and human frailty in favor of a mechanical, robotic accumulation.Such are the level of expectations from Sachin that even a mediocre series raises some eyebrows. Of late, as Wisden noted, Sachin has not been in his old aggressive self. Expert opinion is divided on whether this is due to his increasing years of stress or the lingering after-effects of injuries over 17 years at the highest level. Every one expects him to score at least a half century every match,but none seem to remember that he is just a player turned bright star who always bores the torch of hope and romps INDIA home.He carved a niche of his own in many a million hearts not only in India but world wide.People went on to the extent of praising him as greatest player of all time given the current cricketing scenario.I remember Ganguly lauding him by saying "why worry ?,even 70% fit sachin is better than many great players of topical cricket" in one of the interviews on BBC. And now when Sachin will take part in the Tri-Series in Sri Lanka, he will carry the hopes of millions of Indians, as he did on his arrival as a teenage prodigy, and just the sight of their talismanic player going out to bat will be assurance enough. Go on sachin ....Stay gold.

Sorry dear Sister :(

Its been five years since I stayed with my sister for a "Rakshabandhan" day, I am no man, to say sorry this time to my dear dearer dearest Ammi,for I know she doesn't excuse me for all my apologies this time too.I dedicate this post to you Ammi as a consle to my heart.I din't receive your rakhi yesterday, for me to tie it to my hand today :( I hope it arrives in the afternoon today, I tied another one from baby akka (my cousin) which has come yesterday !!!.Ammi, I promise to keep up the filial covenant of love that we shared since birth and to live a life of purity in thoughts, words and actions.I know that the history is replete with examples where brothers died in defence of their sister's honour.I voe for the same.for, you have been the most adorable one for me.I promise to bring you the gift this weekend when I come to Hyderabad. I really miss this auspicious ceremonial occation which we used to have at home.I do not know how to put he wishes here but lest take my words of "Happy RakshaBandhan Day " meet you soon ......

Happy Friendship Day :)

"Friendship day", and it was time again for all my mates to join hands for yet another sojourn tour,I freaked out to Nandihills 64 KM from Bangalore with 12 of my friends this time,as always we really enjoyed the tall trees, breezy winds, steep hills, trekking on the mountains, historic temples, fantastic nature and its scenic beauty.Then, after returning from the wholly enjoyed trip, as I dug deeper through all my old greetings and birthday cards, I found a simple piece of paper with “To u - From me” scrawled on it.It was the letter written by Rama to me on my second birthday at college ( in my 4th sem I guess). He was my first friend trusted till root after I moved there to Anantapur for my Btech. It was more than a mere letter to me then. It was the promise of a new beginning.It needs a special mention about my best friend Ramakanth when ever I speak of Friendship,thats why this special stanza is written for him.

Then there is much to write about all my dear friends Snippy,Santu,Pappi,khanna,and kutty.Tough times now that just never seem to get better. well, I miss all of you guys and how you have all made me laugh like there was no tomorrow.Thanks Guys for being with me through out.You are the best thing that ever happened to me and who have made a big difference in my life though some of you might be hardly aware of it :).we may not speak for a day, for a month, for a year or maybe never get the chance to look at eachother again in this lifetime.....but the times we have shared will always remain with me...the memories of friendship will forever be etched in this heart which has come across as rock to some and gold to others.Pouts & smiles.who were with me through zits, storms, gaps, the best and the worst, and yet remained tight and true all these years.I knew each one of you would call me to wish for this friendship day as you did. It might not be exactly what the tarot cards ordered but you have to agree, there are few things in life cooler than making new friends and keeping old ones.I wished all my dear friends would be with me partying this night but not to be, missed you all very much for this F-day!! To all my favorite friends, cheers!! and hugs a heap!!!!Happy Friendship day again.

Entangled thoughts

I normally blog when I find time sometimes and when I dont find time for myselfs sometimes,but this time for no reason,I desperately want to write it to share my aching hearts pain with some of you atleast,I always considered myself to be one of those "organised" guys around. Clear about life, goals and all those seemingly abstract terms one can encounter in self-help books. But then, life isn't so easy always.I am in a confusion as to how to put straight my sinking relationship which I once cherished the most.I dont know how to speak with such free affluence with kutty as I used to earlier,I dint knew refraining speech for two months leads to such acute misconstrual.She tried meeting me when I went to Hyd,called me on my bday,scraped and wrote me couple of times,but why did I not respond in a way, to continue to be as I was earlier? I still hung with my idiotic don't care idiosyncrasy.I should have responded in a more friendly and caring manner.now I fear if can get back those days where we cared a lot for each other,I wish Kutty reads this post !!!But I still believe,everything is exactly as it is for a reason. The crumb is on our table not only as a reminder of this morning's cookie, it is there because we have chosen not to remove it. No exceptions. Everything has a reason, and the tiniest detail is a clue.I guess there are only two ways to end this dichotomy. A few hours of perfect solitude - I am craving for which for a long time; or some quality time with a wonderful friend and thats why I have booked my ticket to Hyderabad for the comming weekend to meet my best friend Ramakanth,and find some time for myself.... lets see where it leads after this friendship day.

LOVE - A Hickup

An elusive topic that can never be made understood to anyone completely ...diff things, diff angles, diff views, diff experiences,Always an enigma to wokout,leaving a bedazzled expression on my face when ever I tried understanding what exactly is this...
I am still unable to make up what would be the outcome of the message this post is going to spill, will this in some familiar way open eyes of our youth and bring them to realization of the abused word: “love” ?? or is it in a strange way going to drive some more buffs to fall( rather rise) in Love !!!!!
here goes a discussion......

I : What an amazing view of this very topic.The romantic love is one of the most misunderstood, complicated and misguided topic in today’s world among our youth.The confused youth go around,observing their role models,their looks and their mannerisms,expensive clothes, hot romance and dangerous yet misunderstood love in itself and try mimicing every thing for their satisfaction, what they see on television, and Movies. In all these areas, love exists in such inspiring ways and instills junk stuff feelings in their minds making them desparate.They follow what they watch and what is most enjoyable, citing examples as the ones they admire and try to copy what they see.They believe they completely know what they are doing, although they may not.

Me : Crap!!! Stop stop why do feel following their models as following love,may be it can be be moving with topical trends,and if that is the case,you stupid "I" You should face the accusation of aiding and abetting your friends at college who fell in love rather then preaching them your dos and don'ts, you can't say Love is absurd or lovers are insane with all your imagineering.

I : Youth try to fall in love and believe they are in love, but most of the time it is just lust, attraction and utter confusion. With the assistance of their thoghts, their visions are fogged and what they believe to be true love,is actually just a crush or luxuria that eventually disappears leading to some type of supposed heartbreak. Atlast, they try to be in strong and long relationships. They try to figure out another person of the opposite sex before they even consider figuring themselves out.I can argue on this for hours,there is no true Love....

Myself : Hey Romeo and Juliet fell in love at an age of 14 when they were still in teens,this was no lust,and you can't say they were never lovers,can u?love is an experience which comes out of understanding the person you decide to walk along through out your life, You don't love any one you see, Love spurges out only when one feels its perfectly alright and secured to be in others company and can share good and bad of thy.

I : I am pretty sure that no matter how strong you are, you are likely to experience this uncontrollable cycle when you invite the process of LOVE to your life. If you feel you can intercept someone you should be very honest with yourself. In this case, the relationship should be called a friendship a sincere intention to have only a social interaction with a person.Not hanky panky, so that you can have a clear understanding from the very beginning without any room for guesswork or temptation.DO you now say Romeo and uliet din't crave for this at that tender age??Now,May I ask what explanation do you give to your little brother, sister, or youth who are striving along the path of submission with you? Where does this leave you? What If you are giving in to your urges and satisfying your physical desires. You are a single young and attractive submitter with your emotions and hormones revving in high gear. All you see around you are images of love, romance, passion and sex. Your friends seem to go through dates like it's a fruit and you wonder if they are beginning to question your sexual orientation. Of course, we know that God is Most Merciful and is the acceptor of repentance. But why should you bring yourself to the point of having to repent when you have the power to remain steadfast from the very beginning?

Me & Myself : !#@$*&# Catch you later Buddy, Have some work !!!!